entry in an unknown territory
"Life with its twists and turns
Nowhere do we ever learn,
A mystery it is which lies unfold
Facts about it I wish I were told"
Bangalore: the chain of events since July 21st makes me wonder if life wud have been better or worse elsewhere. Its like i grew up by some massive years here, though I wish I had been given time to live throught the lessons of life. Thought 2006 wud be a happening year for me , for once wasn't left disappointed from the very first day but did i want to be happy this time? wudn't my life had been better without this change..what happened after was worse, thought had found my first frend in B'lore , oh me n my assumptions and my stupid conlusions driven from them..got the biggest blow of my life , never thought i cud make such a big mistake at knowing somebody, no actually it wasn't one, its just that that person is so scared of commitments even with his frendz, watver, just know that he still means a lot to me and will always do, i wud always be there for him..
I have always felt that I never know how to deal with frendz, dunno why they tell me happenings in their lives, is it becoz they think i will spread it around coz I talk so much or is it that they trust me not to discuss it with others without their consent.stupid of me to think its the latter, dunno why but don't wanna discuss it, don't know how people can be so selfish , learnt that don't think everybody in this world's nice, there are lot there waiting to prove u wrong..
but like every other mortal on this earth shud forget about the bad in life and cherish ur frendz who's been there for u always..my frend for 5 and a half years, weren't the best of frendz then but even remember those saturdays when she wud oil my hair and we wud end up discussing our lives for hours, she's been there when i needed her most and unlike many others, hasn't dicthed me ne time, not that we don't have arguments but yes at the end of it all, we know we r there for each other.I have seen her views about a lot of things change here, some for the better but some with which i find it difficult to agree though..
if i talk about the nice things, i have to mention my frend..well dint think we cud have been so close , always thought here was somebody whose true face i wud never get to see, somebody who makes the best effort to be politically correct always but he's proved me wrong, dont remember the last time when i was glad on being corrected though..he's one person who wud never show his emotions, always keeps his true feelings to himself, he wudn't show if he's angry and no hints given if he's upset..somebody who i think wudn't fear to be very true about ur actions, i know i will defnitely be reminded by him if i think i made a blunder without nebody noticing it, somebody who's always given me an unbiased opinion about everything i share with him,there are lots,frend which i think i shud tell u, i care for u lots , i know i don't say it often but u do make a difference by being there always..don't like the arguments we have, hate to discuss that topic with u, don't know myself how to handle it but somehow don't want her to be hurt as well..yups this is one matter which i m so confused about, knew her for a couple of months, was really nice coz we got close really fast, in fact i always thought she's a lot like me but then there were a certain things which i think she shud have been honest about and that brought all the misunderstandings between us..just know one thing won't want my frend to be hurt by nething stupid this girl does always, hey did i mention if i ever had a brother he wud be exactly like him..
lot many more people to talk about, how can i forget my frend at faraway land and yes my mom's fav also deserves some mention,right?
"U say I am yet to see what lies beyond
I know there's a past I shouldn't hold on,
I think the path ahead is bright if my patience is held strong
U say there's lots more I need to explore on"
Nowhere do we ever learn,
A mystery it is which lies unfold
Facts about it I wish I were told"
Bangalore: the chain of events since July 21st makes me wonder if life wud have been better or worse elsewhere. Its like i grew up by some massive years here, though I wish I had been given time to live throught the lessons of life. Thought 2006 wud be a happening year for me , for once wasn't left disappointed from the very first day but did i want to be happy this time? wudn't my life had been better without this change..what happened after was worse, thought had found my first frend in B'lore , oh me n my assumptions and my stupid conlusions driven from them..got the biggest blow of my life , never thought i cud make such a big mistake at knowing somebody, no actually it wasn't one, its just that that person is so scared of commitments even with his frendz, watver, just know that he still means a lot to me and will always do, i wud always be there for him..
I have always felt that I never know how to deal with frendz, dunno why they tell me happenings in their lives, is it becoz they think i will spread it around coz I talk so much or is it that they trust me not to discuss it with others without their consent.stupid of me to think its the latter, dunno why but don't wanna discuss it, don't know how people can be so selfish , learnt that don't think everybody in this world's nice, there are lot there waiting to prove u wrong..
but like every other mortal on this earth shud forget about the bad in life and cherish ur frendz who's been there for u always..my frend for 5 and a half years, weren't the best of frendz then but even remember those saturdays when she wud oil my hair and we wud end up discussing our lives for hours, she's been there when i needed her most and unlike many others, hasn't dicthed me ne time, not that we don't have arguments but yes at the end of it all, we know we r there for each other.I have seen her views about a lot of things change here, some for the better but some with which i find it difficult to agree though..
if i talk about the nice things, i have to mention my frend..well dint think we cud have been so close , always thought here was somebody whose true face i wud never get to see, somebody who makes the best effort to be politically correct always but he's proved me wrong, dont remember the last time when i was glad on being corrected though..he's one person who wud never show his emotions, always keeps his true feelings to himself, he wudn't show if he's angry and no hints given if he's upset..somebody who i think wudn't fear to be very true about ur actions, i know i will defnitely be reminded by him if i think i made a blunder without nebody noticing it, somebody who's always given me an unbiased opinion about everything i share with him,there are lots,frend which i think i shud tell u, i care for u lots , i know i don't say it often but u do make a difference by being there always..don't like the arguments we have, hate to discuss that topic with u, don't know myself how to handle it but somehow don't want her to be hurt as well..yups this is one matter which i m so confused about, knew her for a couple of months, was really nice coz we got close really fast, in fact i always thought she's a lot like me but then there were a certain things which i think she shud have been honest about and that brought all the misunderstandings between us..just know one thing won't want my frend to be hurt by nething stupid this girl does always, hey did i mention if i ever had a brother he wud be exactly like him..
lot many more people to talk about, how can i forget my frend at faraway land and yes my mom's fav also deserves some mention,right?
"U say I am yet to see what lies beyond
I know there's a past I shouldn't hold on,
I think the path ahead is bright if my patience is held strong
U say there's lots more I need to explore on"
posted by The unknown self at 1:23 AM
2 Comments:
hmm.. well.. very well written... so.. what do u mean by unknown territory?... i get the feeling that you are referring to a person and not a place... isnt that so?
@colours: i would definitely not like to elaborate more on that..take it as you like..it wouldn't make any difference to what i wanted to speak out to myself..
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