Hurt...very hurt...

"Painful it is, Hurt I am
Destiny is harsh I know now;
God is there I thought always
My faith in HIM needs an answer to stand strong now"

Vanished it did much before I could even realize, yes Hurt I am , hold myself completely responsible for it..I m feeling bad about having to lose a frendship which cud have been for a lifetime..when will i stop expecting btw what did i ask for this time , God yes u need to tell me now..there has to be a stop..either u tell me what's my fault or u don't make me go thru all these..I was not in love or smthing but i cudn't have lied to ma and no I won't blame her, why shud I , dint she do whatever any other mom wud have..she's not to be blamed if she's got a daughter who some body thinks is not gud at all..no my self-esteem , my confidence has got a blow, hate to accept it..but i can't let it out this time..i m depressed because I thought i knew my frend, i can understand the pressures but why lemme be hurt..i wasn't even given a chance to ask a question but that's fine, wudn't like to blame him becoz he's been very honest from the very first day we got to know each other..well curse the fate which let us meet again after so many years, i dint ask for it..yes i get emotional very soon but I can't help it..i just know for once I m very hurt........i hate to see tears flowing down my eyes but i can't cry, I can't bear to see that mom wud feel bad..i can't bear to answer anybody for what happened..please come back..please can we be frendz again...I know stupid of me to think that u wud be reading this...